Its been a while....

Well I know that it has been a while since I have posted.... almost 5 months... And now Zion is almost 8 months old! I can't hardly believe it!

And in even better news Enkaiye will finally get here on the 11th of november....

And that is pretty much my life right now... so, I will be writing more later... i'm at work right now!

Impassible Divide?

I am sitting here on my bed once again at the end of another long day. I am holding my sweet three month old baby in my arms, while watching John Sewart on Comedy Central, as is my nightly ritual. And I feel miles away from a world that I love. Where I would fall asleep at night to the sound of hyenas, crickets, and songs being sung at villages in the distance. Not to the sound of an overwhelming amount of commercials enticing me to buy a pair of Nike shoes by puppet versions of LaBron James and Kobe Bryant.

As I sit here there is no seemingly significant cross-roads in my life begging for my attention, but I feel somehow like I have come to a point where I have to reconcile myself with all of the parts of me.

I am what you might call a citizen of the world. Others call us who have grown up seemingly gliding between home cultures, host cultures, school cultures, and personal cultures. I have often described myself as someone who has multiple personalities. I don't know any other way to explain how easy it is to be here and be there at the same time. I feel like two different people when I am here in the US reflecting on how I feel so at home in Maasai. Life asks such different things of me there than it does here.

I have lived the past seven years here in the States feeling like it is somehow OK to leave one world behind while I live in another. Now I have reached a point where I need to bridge the gap that separates Lacey from Sialo. So, I guess my attempt at doing this is going to be to tell my story. It might not mean anything to anyone else, but it is important to my daughter who is half of me and half Masinta. She needs to know that the divide isn't impassible. That you can be both here and there.